if one day you dont hear from me , go to the seaside and look for me...... that is the place where i could calm down and sort out my thoughts



mentally drained... I need someone

Notice that my blog is like once a month.. so for now i will try to blog as often as i can. It is already Nov and there is much happening... Too many things that happened which made me not prepared. knowing someone else is going after my dear.... i am not prepared for anything only for his return to his country. To be honest, i dont mind sticking to him. I dont mind our age gap( 10 YEARS APART)  i really really really really dont mind..... As long as I love you, I won't mind anything. I am willing to do anything for you because i know i love you more than i love myself .. Sounds abit stupid but ya... Trust, I always do have in him but not other girls.. He is not that handsome, not that rich but i dont mind. Even one day he were to ask me to follow him back, I am willing..


But now, i knew that some things he does not want me to know... this hurts me the most... why cnt he be honest with me? Whatever it is, i dont stop him from doing it... Trying to get over with it but it seems to be a challenge to me... this few nights , i am sleeping in tears... Whenever i think of him, tears would roll down ... He is someone who is that important to me... I hate it when night comes, that the point when i feel lonely and scare......


Please tell me what I should do to get with it... Will he still be with me no matter what? i really do love him.... seriously.....


For someone else:
So i guess, someone else had moved on.. Well , you will have my blessing. You gave me memories that enough... I am thankful for all the things you said to me, All the things you done for me and the time when you spent with me. Thank you!

I really hope things will be back to the past.. That's all...

Why people are like that ?

This two weeks I have came across different types of customers and know what.... i still do get annoyed by those people who thinks that they are high-class. OMG see which part of you look high-class. trying to act like one B****. okay, shall not be mean to them but this is what i see. Hey, people who ever that is doing the cashier please show some respect to them can ? So what if you paying money?Everyone is equal okay? Does not mean that you have more money this is how you treat those cashiers ?! cashiers do have feelings one okay ? Another thing, people who like to "put" their money on the counter. hey hello... do you want your change to be on the counter table too? If don't want, why are you doing this to the cashiers? I have alot to tell off people like these !


Well , i met most of the customers who are so ....... but well dont think that customers are ALWAYS RIGHT ! NO!

Sometimes yes, it can be ...

Went to JB last sunday(23/9) with my family. It has been long since I went out with them for a whole day. Enjoyed myself shopping there, eating, spending money too. This is what I always wished for. It came true. Having a little brother around might not be convenient enough but well, we manage to "handled" him. So spent almost RM200 and only left RM20+ but the money was well spent on the food and the things i bought. Weather is bad as it is humid BUT.. yeah. Back to city sq @ JB, there was doraemon fair ! My dad bought for me a doraemon sling bag and also a pencil case but i will just going to put my charger and stuff into it as it was big enough.

 

this is from my dad. my advanced birthday present ! :) thanks dad !

 

okay that's all :)